Kason started kindergarten this week. His school is about 4 blocks down the street (a straight shot walking, and there's a crossing guard). I walked him to school his first day, and this was our conversation:Mom, you don't have to walk me to school.
Yes, I'm walking you to school.
Mom, you don't have to walk me. I know where it is.
Yes, I'm walking you. I want to be sure you get to the right spot.
Fine, you can walk me ONE time.
No, I'm going to walk you for awhile.
Fine, you can walk me FOUR times.
etc.
When we were about 1 block from the school, it went like this:
Ok mom, quick kiss.
No Kason, I'm going to walk you clear to the school.
And when we got there, he gave me a quick kiss, and Abby a hug and kiss, and he was outta there. So exciting!
I walked home and didn't even cry and was so proud of myself. But when I walked in the door and Tige was there, I lost it and I think I cried 3 times in the next hour. I seriously can't believe my sweet baby boy is in kindergarten! I'm afraid I've lost my hold on him, and the safe, pure environment I've tried to create for him. He's going to hear words and phrases there that he's never heard at home. I hope he can make right choices. I hope he'll be kind. I hope I taught him enough . . .
(I am, however, quickly thinking up things to fill that 3 hours each day, so I'm sure I'll get over it quickly!)
His teacher trying to wrangle the kindergartners into a line.
In line, already making friends.
6 comments:
So many emotions on that day...I remember taking my oldest...going back to work...crying my eyes out...pretty silly. This week I will be taking my baby to kindergarten...not sure there are enough tissues for that day...she is super excited, but I am scared and sad...so many things are happening for the last time now...she is my last one to go to school for the first time...been thinking a little too much lately! She is so excited, though...I can't be too sad about that! Now, like you, I just have to trust that the important things I have tried to teach her will sink in and she will be who I know she can be...no pressure for my 5 year old! :)
I just sent Braxton and Sammy off this morning and I thought it would get easier. Nope. I cried again. They were so excited.
I must be an awful mom because I didn't cry with my first and I don't plan on crying with my second, and he goes all day 7:50 to 3:00! They start next week. Just be grateful for family home evening so you can set them straight. Congrats and happy birthday, Tige!
It's okay to cry. I know men aren't supposed to, but I cried like a baby - and Avie was only one hallway down!!
I don't know... that kid in the camo shirt looks like trouble.
Kason, on the other hand, looks so handsome! What a big boy.
Julie, you are one of the best mom's I know. I really look up to you and appreciate all your advice. So, Kason will do fine. He will have issues, but who doesn't. By the way, he looks tall compared to a few of the boys. Is he tall for his age?
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